if nobody reads

i may want to be in love again
do i let myself desire
come on baby light my fire

do i raise the stakes
beyond all heartbreaks
to the pain

and then i wrote
silly serious secure guy
who is anything but normal
tolerates humanity
most days

flipping between
wanting to hitch a ride
off this planet
to wanting to
save the world

but sometimes wondering why
(endless hope sprinkled with lots of cynicism, or vice versa)
too complex for those who won't really listen,
too simple for those who do...
still looking for my 42.

you fit me
and i fit you
in ways words can not describe...

and i raise the stakes
beyond all heartbreaks
to the pain

everywhere i look i see the empty eyes
and no surprise
everywhere i go i find the vast unwise
and no surprise

it is unfinished.

and if nobody read
and if nobody hears
does the song exist
do the feelings
do i?

and if nobody reads
and if nobody hears
what is really missed
are there feelings
am i?

are you
my 42?

too complex for those who won't really listen,
too simple for those who do...
still looking for my 42.