A Love Song

As Elton John Sang, I Believe In Love. And Billy Joel's Honesty keeps me alone, in spite of the desire to share love. Because the two songs speak the truth. I believe in love, it's all I've got.... and honesty is such a lonely word. I don't want to believe everyone is so untrue, at least not because people want to be. I want to believe people are just confused by fear, fear that they empower more than love. Fear is easier. It comes with fewer responsibilities. In fact, fear allows the shirking of most responsibilities. Being afraid is an excuse for getting away with almost anything. Maybe anything.

Love comes with serious responsibilities. It requires action. Follow through. Consistency. Love requires paying attention. Love is commitment to caring, to sharing, to being honest and open and true to yourself and someone else. Love requires open eyes, an open heart, and an open mind. Scary stuff for most, so fear grows and becomes much easier to nurture. Fear takes away all the responsibilities of love. Easy, or at least easier.

Loneliness becomes comfortable. Nobody to account to. Nobody to take a shower or bath for. Nobody to care if we care about anything. Lonely is so much easier than love for the same and similar reasons fear is so much easier than love. Lonely requires no responsibility for anything. No need to keep an appointment. No need to share. The freedom to choose to do, to wear, to eat, to be anything you want to be at any given moment. That's the freedom loneliness provides.

No wonder so many people are lonely. No wonder so many people live in fear.

I'll still choose love, to live in love, and my door is open.

This is my love song to loneliness...

this is my love song to loneliness
this is my love song to fear
to the darkness of depression
to the emptiness of hopelessness
this is my love song to the pain of despair

this is my love song to loneliness
and to those who empower fear
you make choices every day
every moment you can play
any game in your mind if you choose to be aware

giving up is just a choice
silence is just an unused voice
low self esteem
is just a bad dream
that you can rise above
if you just choose to love

this is my love song to emptiness
to the hollow feeling that is fear
all the pain, all the strife
all the cruelty in life
can be powerless when it's out there

this is my lone song to loneliness
the path to overcome fear
all alone in my mind
I can choose to be kind
and create paradise for me here
if I just choose to love...

giving up is just a choice
silence is just an unused voice
low self esteem
is just a bad dream
that you can rise above
if you just choose to love

the different between
agony and ecstasy
is so clear to see
if I just choose to love...
me

And a love song to you...

no end (to the love)

no end to the love
no end to the obsession
no end to the feeling
some may call it regression
love is simply obsession

as a child I was always searching
for the soulmate I knew in my dreams
from the first moment I started breathing
I understood what true love means

the said I was way ahead of my time
some said it just was not right
for I lived the whole of my life in the dark
searching for my only light

what will it take
what kind of heart
to understand
how I fell apart

what will it take
what kind of mind
to comprehend
how to be kind

what will it take
what kind of soul
to stay with me
until I'm whole

what will it take
what kind of friend
to share my heart
there is no end
to the love
there is no end
to the love
there is no end
to our love
there is no end

you were fourteen when I fell in love with you
it was love at first sight
when I was not with you I was in the dark
for you were my only light

and you were fifteen when your passion flower opened
it was heaven on Earth
angels sang and bells rang for with you
you became my spiritual birth

what will it take
what kind of heart
to understand
how I fell apart

what will it take
what kind of mind
to comprehend
how to be kind

what will it take
what kind of soul
to stay with me
until I'm whole

what will it take
what kind of friend
to share my heart
there is no end
to the love
there is no end
to the love
there is no end
to our love
there is no end
to our love
there is no end

and you were sixteen on the day we last shared a dance
and there was no more light
I lived the rest of my life in the dark
for you were my only light

you were forty when I tried to fall in love again
she was not you
it was a failed rebirth without you
for me
there is no heaven on Earth without you
without you there is no heaven on Earth

what will it take
what kind of mind
to comprehend
how to be kind

what will it take
what kind of heart
to understand
how I fell apart

what will it take
what kind of soul
to stay with me
until I'm whole

what will it take
what kind of friend
to share my heart
there is no end
to the love
there is no end
to the love
there is no end
to our love
there is no end
to the love
there is no end
there is no end
to the love
there is no end

are you out there?

are you out there?
are you listening?
do you ever wonder why we fell apart?

are you in there?
are you wondering?
do you ever find me in your heart?

the girl I knew believed in love that had no end
so how can we not even be friends?
the girl I knew had a heart so pure and true
I wonder what happened to you?

Did you compromise
with a world of lies
Just to fit in with the popular crowd?

Did you sell your soul
and give up control
of the magic that they said was not allowed?

are you pretending now that it's not there?
do you really think your heart doesn't care?
would you be surprised to wake up in the night
to find a haunted soul still seeking the light?

no one's watching now
you can be at ease
you can tell the truth at least to yourself

when you give up on love
you let part of you die
and your dreams are left to dust upon a shelf

it is not too late
as long as you live
you can still be real and true to your heart

I am still right here
and yes I still care
for true love has no end once it starts

are you out there?
are you listening?
do you ever wonder why we fell apart?

are you in there?
are you wondering?
do you ever find me in your heart?

the girl I knew believed in love that had no end
so how can we not even be friends?
the girl I knew had a heart so pure and true
and I know she is still you
yes I know she is still you.

the best choice

sitting home alone saving some money
finding the internet both sad and funny
hoping to find some friends who understand
why i resist the success in this land

politics, religion, and economic wealth
are power trips i don't want for myself
distractions from what matters most in life
sharing love with a partner husband or wife

money does not matter in true love
power trips only get in the way
gender does not matter in true love
all divisive games that people play
when they're afraid of trust and love
all i want in life is trust and love
all i want in life is true love
all i want in life is true love

can you still trust unconditionally
as you did when you were born?
i am looking for someone who still can

can you give your heart completely
as you did before it broke?
it is possible if you understand

power does not matter in true love
trying to control just gets in the way
freedom is the essence of true love
trust above all else, come what may
and fear is the enermy to overcome
along with the pain that makes you numb
don't let your heart turn blind deaf and dumb
let true love be your primary drum

you can still trust unconditionally
as you did when you were born
if you let go of the fear and see the pain

as proof that you can give your heart completely
and realize there is no better choice
but to do it all over again
you can start all over again

just let go of all fear
give in to your heart
it only wants to care
it has from the start
accept that the best choice
is to risk it all again
and you will find true love
like rainbows find the rain

just realize there is no better choice
but to do it all over again
and you can start all over again
yes you can start all over again
just do it and start all over again

when i had the time

this is how it used to be
when i had the time
to let my mind wander through
whatever it might find
imagination, fantasies
flowing into rhyme
dreams to come and dreams gone by
nothing left behind
when i had the time

memories became epic conversations
between the voices deep inside my head
hopes and dreams became infinite variations
wherever imagination lead

sometimes real desires
sometimes other's fires
observations, inspirations
everything inspires

being without fear
no inhibitions allow
free creativity
have we forgotten how
or are we there right now

she was the perfection i always dreamed of
fitting every part of me so exactly
there could be no better actualized true love
and when she went away i died
rhyme cried

and memories replaced reality
fantasies replaced my sanity
she was all that i wanted to see
dreaming was the best i could do
to be the best i could be

and i came to realize
when the perfection dies
and the rhyme cries
but true love never lies

and i'd remember
when i had the time
and i can still dream
when i have the time

she is the perfection i always dreamed of
fitting every part of me so exactly
there could be no better actualized true love
i just had to close my eyes so i could see
and she never went away in my mind
she has always live in my rhyme
this is how it used to be
when i had the time

yes, this is how it used to be
when i had the time
to let my mind wander through
whatever it might find
imagination, fantasies
flowing into rhyme
dreams to come and dreams gone by
nothing left behind
when i had the time

friends

this is how it used to be
when you were in love with me
the words fell into rhyme
the music fell in time
and life was a euphoric ecstasy

now i don't know what to do
cuz i am still in love with you
even after all this time
you are still my most sublime
it might not make sense but it's true
(i'm still in love with you)

some may think this is sad
some may say i've lost my mind
is it crazy to be happy
i did not leave you behind

when i promised i will love you
i meant till the end of all time
maybe most people just say it
i think that is the sad crime

but you don't have to agree with me
you can be anyone you want to be
and if you didn't mean it that's ok
i still love you anyway

this is how it's meant to be
love is for eternity
love can never end
love cannot pretend
love is a euphoric ecstasy

this is the best i can do
don't pretend you never knew
this is what the heart dreams of
time does not change true love
it doesn't have to make sense to be true
(i can still be in love with you)

i don't mean to scare you
or interfere in your life
it's ok if you don't want me
and you're someone else's wife

we don't have to be together
we may never meet again
but as sure as there is
i will always be your friend

this is how it's meant to be
love is not a fantasy
love can never end
and i am still your friend
for all eternity

this is how it's meant to be
love is my reality
love cannot pretend
love can never end
time does not change what is true
i will always be here for you
if you ever need anything
i will always be here for you

with you

the most real i ever felt
the most love i ever felt
the most trust i ever felt
the most right i ever felt
yes it's true

all the wonder and excitement i've known throughout this life
and there has been a lot
does not compared with the time i fell in love for the first time
and i almost forgot

they say you can't go home again and i guess this is what they mean
but how can i not
the foundation for my understanding love and happiness
i almost forgot

the most real i ever felt
the most love i ever felt
the most trust i ever felt
the most right i ever felt
was with you

i've written a few love songs since the first
but somehow they always always felt incomplete
like i could not find a drink to quench my thirst
i searched from the penthouses to the street

there were others who became part of my heart
and we tried to deny what we knew was true
when we'd get near the core of the bottom of my heart
we were not alone for there we would find you

you lived in my heart
you became my heart
i should have known from the start

you lived in my heart
we could not be apart
and it may not be very smart
but you still live in my heart
you are still in my heart
you are still my heart

and all the wonder and excitement i've known throughout this life
and there has been a lot
does not compared with the time i fell in love for the first time
and i almost forgot

they say you can't go home again and i guess this is what they mean
but how can i not
the foundation for my understanding love and happiness
i almost forgot

the most real i ever felt
the most love i ever felt
the most trust i ever felt
the most right i ever felt
was with you