Once In Love...

if nobody reads

2012-01-18T19:44:00.001-05:00

i may want to be in love again
do i let myself desire
come on baby light my fire

do i raise the stakes
beyond all heartbreaks
to the pain

and then i wrote
silly serious secure guy
who is anything but normal
tolerates humanity
most days

flipping between
wanting to hitch a ride
off this planet
to wanting to
save the world

but sometimes wondering why
(endless hope sprinkled with lots of cynicism, or vice versa)
too complex for those who won't really listen,
too simple for those who do...
still looking for my 42.

you fit me
and i fit you
in ways words can not describe...

and i raise the stakes
beyond all heartbreaks
to the pain

everywhere i look i see the empty eyes
and no surprise
everywhere i go i find the vast unwise
and no surprise

it is unfinished.

and if nobody read
and if nobody hears
does the song exist
do the feelings
do i?

and if nobody reads
and if nobody hears
what is really missed
are there feelings
am i?

are you
my 42?

too complex for those who won't really listen,
too simple for those who do...
still looking for my 42.

with the phone

2011-08-25T21:29:00.000-05:00

i take the phone with me when i walk the dog
hoping i will hear it ring
i live a lonely life these days
all about me, that's why i sing
maybe you will hear me
maybe you will care
maybe you will come near me
maybe you will share

i take the phone with me when i take a shower
hoping i will hear it ring
i am tired of living alone
only with me, that's why i sing
maybe you will hear me
maybe you will care
maybe you will come near me
maybe you will share

believing in love
wanting to be in love
living alone
living with the phone

believing in life
wanting to be a wife
out on my own
making it on my own

i take the phone with me when i go to movies
hoping i will feel it ring
yes i go to the movies by myself
all by myself, just hoping
maybe you will hear me
maybe you will care
maybe you will come near me
maybe you will share

i take keep the phone with me when i watch tv
hoping i will hear it ring
does this sound familiar?
is this a song you can sing
maybe you will hear me
maybe you will care
maybe you will come near me
maybe you will share

believing in love
wanting to be in love
living alone
living with the phone

believing in love
wanting to be in love
out on my own
making it on my own

the phone sits on my chest as i sleep
dreaming it will wake me
dreaming it will take me
to falling in love

believing in love
wanting to be in love
living alone
living with the phone

there was a time

2011-08-16T23:43:00.001-05:00

there was a time when i inspired people
when i heard the words thank you many times a day
there was a time when i admired people
when i said the words thank you many times a day
there was a time when i invigorated people
when i heard the word yes many times a day
there was a time when i amazed people
when i heard the word wow many times a day

there was a time
people used to come to me for help and advice
there was a time
people used to gather round to hear my song
there was a time
people used to always want to be around me
there was a time
people used to tell me that i could do no wrong

i must have disappointed a lot of people
i must have lost my touch, my edge, my force
people and i used to have such a perfect marriage
but somehow people and i have gotten a divorce

there was a time people and i loved each other
there was a time people and i were best of friends
there was a time people and i were sisters and brothers
there was a time people and i knew love had no ends

there was a time
love was all around me
there was a time
everyone was my friend
there was a time
love always found me
there was a time
love had no end

once you know a time like that
you can't go back to any other time
once you know a time like that
you know the meaning of sublime

there was a time
love was all around me
there was a time
everyone was my friend
there was a time
love always found me
there was a time
love had no end

and what i want most in this world
is for that time to come again
and what i want most in this world
is for that time to come again

would you laugh

2011-08-05T20:20:00.000-05:00

would you laugh at me if i told you how much i miss you?
would you be surprised if i told you how much i care?
would you be concerned of offended
if i told you i'm sad that it ended
and i'm jealous of those with whom you now share?

say goodbye
no no i never ever say goodbye
say farewell
no no i never ever say farewell
say adieu
not to you
it just won't happen
and i'm not rappin
it is not just a rhyme
i will be here for you
beyond the end of time

would you laugh if i told you how much i love you?
would you be surprised if i told you how important you are to me?
would you be uncomfortable
if i always called you beautiful
living with you was a dream and now i am left with only fantasy

say goodbye
no no i never ever say goodbye
say farewell
no no i never ever say farewell
say adieu
not to you
it just won't happen
and i'm not rappin
it is not just a rhyme
i will be here for you
beyond the end of time

would you take me seriously
if i opened my heart completely
and gave you ever key
to every secret there ever was in me

would you feel it was too much
for us to always be in touch
like a sing that never ends
can we always be best friends

for the bottom line is what i want most is your happiness
and if that is somewhere far away, then i'll adjust i guess
you are someone who can melt my heart and also own my mind
and there is no good reason to leave a friend like me behind
i give you the truest heart you'll ever find
but don't just stay in touch to be kind

would you laugh at me if i told you how much i miss you?
would you be surprised if i told you how much i care?
would you be concerned of offended
if i told you i'm sad that it ended
and truth is i will accept anything you want to share?
for i just want to know you are happy
even if you are not here

say goodbye
no no i never ever say goodbye
say farewell
no no i never ever say farewell
say adieu
not to you
it just won't happen
and i'm not rappin
it is not just a rhyme
i will be here for you
beyond the end of time

i will be here for you
my friend
beyond the end of time

i will be here for you
my friend
beyond the end of time

looking for a love

2011-08-02T20:48:00.003-05:00

a long time ago i fell in love
and i am still in love with that girl
the hunger to love has never diminished
it is my reason for being in this world

over and over i've fallen in love
but only a few times i tried
i never wanted the relationships to end
and i never said goodbye

but i'm still looking for the one
who will never leave
i'm still looking for the one
who will understand why i grieve
every love that has ever come before
for love should never come to an end
every love is part of every love
fall in love with that my friend
and you might understand me
and you might be the one
my love is never ending
and we've only just begun

over and over i've fallen in love
but only a few times i tried
i never wanted the relationships to end
and i never said goodbye

but i'm still looking for the one
who will never leave
i'm still looking for the one
who truly believes
that love is forever
eternal, infinite
love is everywhere
we are all part of it
love is amazing
the reason we live
the meaning of life
the best we can give

and i'm still looking for the one
who is my best friend
i'm still looking for the one
who knows love without end
and i'm still looking for the one
who loves the way i do
i'm still looking for the one
should i look at you?

once in love

2011-05-30T03:06:00.001-05:00

it is so easy to lament
the love that came before
when one is alone
wondering
will love come once more

no one can predict
the love that yet may come
when one is alone
oh
it is so easy to be numb

but once in love...
there is no going back
the heart and mind
can only have one track
there is no forgetting
the bliss that love brings
even deep in loneliness,
eternal hope springs

once in love... always in love
once in love... always in love

(testify)
even as i remember how much i miss the sharing
even as i remember how much i want the caring
even as i remember how sad it feels to lose romance
i can still remember that i live to take the chance
to fall in love again... to share the dance

but once in love...
there is no going back
the heart and mind
can only have one track
there is no forgetting
the bliss that love brings
even deep in loneliness,
eternal hope springs

once in love... always in love
once in love... always in love

(affirm)
i will love myself in every way
i will be ready for the next day
that love comes to stay
this love song will play

but once in love...
there is no going back
the heart and mind
can only have one track
there is no forgetting
the bliss that love brings
even deep in loneliness,
eternal hope springs

once in love... always in love
once in love... always in love

forget

2011-01-21T02:40:00.000-05:00

did you want me to forget
let you go
leave you alone
i don't know
it's been years
lives apart
and yet you still
live in my heart

what did you expect
after all
you knew me best
how i fall
never ends
love is real
never ends
how it feels

maybe you can turn it on and off like some people do
maybe you never really understood or knew
the true power of love and unconditional trust
maybe all it ever was was momentary lust
how hard can a human heart get
how lost can the human mind become
how much can the human being forget
how must time is wasted, numb

what did you really want
the easy way out
to please others
is that what life's about
and what of your deepest
hopes, wishes, and dreams
did you let them die
are they never as they seem

what did you expect
after all
you knew me best
how i fall
never ends
love is real
never ends
how it feels
never ends
one more time
one more time
one more time
did you forget that there is always one more time?

isn't that

2010-10-18T22:42:00.000-05:00

guess you didn’t believe me
when I promised forever
guess I’m kind of like a stalker now
believing we belong together
but isn’t that love
and isn’t that truth
the kind we dream of
as innocent youth
the kind of love they write fairy tales about
well this fairy tale is real beyond a doubt
and you know it’s there inside you
even if you never let it out

the promise of love

2010-09-16T23:50:00.002-05:00

it has been so long
since I looked into eyes
that adored me

it has been so long
since I found a secret smile
that was for me

it has been so long
since I found myself in love
with someone who was in love
with me

it has been so long
since the promise was something
I could see

the promise of love
to last forever
to always be there
to share everything

the promise of love
beyond the treasure
the endless love song
we’ll always sing

the promise of love
the final answer
the promise of hope
that never fails
the promise of truth
that’s never hidden
the promise of trust
the holy grail

unconditional
the ultimate wind
sought by every sail

the promise of love
beyond the infinite
there’s perfect faith in it
beyond belief

the promise of love
words cannot express it
hearts cannot confess it
it is relief

the promise of love
the deepest reason
the promise of hope
that’s always new
the promise of truth
to understand the plan
the promise of trust
that’s always true

unconditional
the promise of love
I made to you

all my life

2010-09-16T23:17:00.000-05:00

all my life
I’ve searched for someone like you
all my life
I promised that I’d be true
every song I sing
and everything I do
all my life
I wonder if you ever knew
how much… I love you

all my life
you were the dream in my eyes
all my life
it should come as no surprise
every bell I hear
every smile I wear
all my life
what always carried me through
was how much… I love you

the darkest hours
the crushing blows
the meanest pains
the cruelest foes
the horror story
that no one knows
no matter the trial that tried me
there was always a light to guide me
there was always this love inside me
out of the blue
a promise to love forever
you always helped me remember
the beauty of love me tender
love me true
the gift you gave still gives me every clue
the riddle of life resolved
in how much… I love you

all my life
is how much I love you
all my life
is how much I love you
all my life
and everything I do
all my life
is how much… I love you
I love you
I love you
whispered: (I love you)

living the song

2010-09-15T23:37:00.000-05:00

living the song
living the memory
in one part harmony
you've got a line or two
out of place
and memories
of your face
are calling me
she's calling me
back

cuz i'm living the song
living the song
musical comedy
hiding a tragedy
the moment i saw you
somehow i knew
you'd bring me back to her
first of december
cold rain and shivers
your song delivers
did you know
are you calling me
back

to living the song
and living the memory
in one part harmony
there's a look in your eyes
calling me (out of place)
a message in your smile
calling me (and your face)
is calling me
you're calling me
back

cuz i'm living the song
living the song
are you my destiny
or just a fantasy

living the song
living the memory
in one part harmony
your voice is calling me
calling me
calling me

living the song

<a href="http://megdia.bandcamp.com/track/the-one">The One by Meg & Dia</a>

heaven knows

2010-07-14T00:58:00.001-05:00

I left my heart in your hands
oh so many years ago
and I may be called a fool
to still be so attracted
to your face, it was love
at first site and heaven knows
it never ends unless it pretends
but the truth between friends
is when it’s true love
true love always grows

the first moment I saw you
I lost control of my heart
I was made to adore you
you took my mind apart
and every piece of my being
became putty in your hands
after all these years
did you ever understand?

you gave me away
I did your bidding
you wanted me back
but were you kidding?
it became to intense
as lies always do
and I lost everything
the moment I lost you

I left my soul in your hands
and there it still remains
did you ever really know?
did you ever want me again?
and I may be called a fool
to still be so attracted
to your face, it was love
at first site and heaven knows
it never ends unless it pretends
but the truth between friends
is when it’s true love
true love always grows

the first moment I saw you
I lost control of my heart
I was made to adore you
you took my mind apart
and every piece of my being
became putty in your hands
after all these years
did you ever understand?

i looked into your eyes
and saw beauty deep within
was it all in my mind
or the ultimate win
did i really touch you?

all i know is i still feel
and believe you are the one
and it doesn't change with time
from the first look till now
it's as if the feeling has just begun

so I may be called a fool
to still be so attracted
to your face, it was love
at first site and heaven knows
it never ends unless it pretends
but the truth between friends
is when it’s true love
true love always grows

it was true love for me
but what it was for you
heaven knows

there is no end

2010-05-31T04:07:00.000-05:00

how many songs have said these simple words
how many ways have poets prosed the sentiment
how many times have human hearts felt the same, it's so absurd
to think the mind could deny what the words meant
you'd think a heart could be made of stone and a head filled with cement

there is no end
to love
my friends

there is no end
unless
your heart pretends

there is no end
to love
there is no defence

for anyone to claim
that love could end

there is no end
to love
my friends

confuse yourself with possessive passion or control
let greed devour your senses if power is your goal
develop rational constructs to dessimate your soul
but you can't change the truth no matter what unfolds
it's still the greatest story ever told

there is no end
to love
my friends

there is no end
unless
your heart pretends

there is no end
to love
there is no defence

for anyone to claim
that love could end

there is no end
to love
my friends

innocence and trust are the most powerful forces
in this life, in this universe
at the core of love you find infinite resources
accept the blessing, reject the curse
realize that if you empower fear you undo the will
that creates life, whatever you may call
your holy revelation and ultimate saving thrill
you only experience when you fall
in love and give your all
unconditional faith beyond reason
you can touch it when you fall
in love and give it your all

the end of delusion
the end of confusion
the end of refusing
the end of fearful abusing
the infinite eternal experience
every human heart one day dreams of
beyond anything our minds can imagine
the heart understands the passion
of the calling of the falling
of the seeing of the freeing
feeling of just being in love
just let yourself start believing
and you will start receiving
the freeing of being in love

there is no end
to love
my friends

there is no end
unless
your heart pretends

there is no end
to love
there is no defence

for anyone to claim
that love could end

there is no end
to love
my friends

as if i did not know

2010-04-15T22:30:00.000-05:00

many years ago
or just a moment in time
it is all just a matter of perpective

you were everything
the only reason for my rhyme
the primary purpose for the life i live

and no matter what
the devotion is real
and no matter when
this is the way i feel
and no matter how
beyond any doubt
this is the truth
and what life is all about

once upon a time
magic moments filled the air
and the sunshine of my life beamed out of you

the love does not end
even if you do not care
you can not change my heart where my love is true

and no matter what
the devotion remains
and no matter when
life exists in brains
and no matter how
this is reality
this is the truth
you are a fantasy

as if i did not know
you are a fantasy
and no matter what
you will live in me

someday somehow
someone will share with me
this magic moment
in reality
and until then
this is where i will be
as if i did not know
you are a fantasy

someday somehow
someone will share with me
this magic moment
in reality
and until then
this love will always be
as if i did not know
you are a fantasy

the wonder i feel

2009-12-16T03:11:00.000-05:00

sometimes I let myself sleep through it
sometimes there come nights like this
when I let the feelings rise through me
and I let myself reminisce

and I wish you could know the wonder I feel
the peace of knowing love so true
for no matter what or where we’ve been
I’m still in love with you

I’ve learned through the years that a heart can love many
that true love does not diminish when it is not shared
and when the pain of separation would come around
all I need to do is remember how much we cared

and as the years passed I accepted your choices
to leave me out of your life and family
but that does not change the inner voices
and you will always sing inside of me

and I wish you could know the wonder I feel
the peace of knowing love so true
for no matter what or where we’ve been
I’m still in love with you

and rare is the one who can embrace a heart as true as mine
for she has to love you and everyone I ever loved
and there have been a few others who could reach the divine
embrace of innocent passion that every heart dreams of

and as he years passed I accepted the reasons
people leave me out of their lives and families
for I will not allow pretend or limitations
in my heart there will be no conformity

and I wish you could know the wonder I feel
the peace of knowing love so true
for no matter what or where we’ve been
I’m still in love with you

anyone I’ve ever loved is welcome back
for an end to love is one thing I lack
I’m not interested in normal or propriety
true love is the only reason for living for me

and I wish you all could know the wonder I feel
the peace of knowing love so true
for no matter what or where we’ve been
I’m still in love with you
I’ll always be in love with you

one more

2009-12-14T00:51:00.001-05:00

there was only one time
in this life
when I felt completely loved
by someone I wanted deeper
than my consciousness could control

there was only one love
in this life
when fell completely in
and felt completely satisfied
something like a solstice of the soul

it was my rebirth
my place on this earth
was suddenly intense
and everything made sense
because I was in love
with the one in love
with me
there was never more
true love before
amy

and as the years passed
in this life
I tried to fall in love again
but no one understood enough
and my consciousness continued

to search for the one
in this life
who could understand my mind
and make sense of my heart and soul
for rebirth in love requires two

until two become one
the search for love is not done

and there are many who live alone
successful and complete
with no need for the fall in love
no need to go that deep
and I have enjoyed every day
alone in this life
but I still find this dream alive
more than husband and wife

it is a rebirth
a place on this earth
so suddenly intense
that everything makes sense
because we are in love
two become one in love
you see
there must be one more
true love in store
for me

there must be one more
true love in store
for me

if i saw you today

2009-12-13T02:59:00.001-05:00

would I know you if I saw you today
my heart will not forget how much I loved you
my mind will not stop dreaming of you
but would my eyes
recognize
your face
if I saw you today

would my eyes want to see
the look in your eyes
when you were in love with me
and not recognize
you if you got over me
would it come as a surprise
to be forgotten, really

if you piled on the weight
did not take care of yourself
lost the glow in your face
put your heart on a shelf
if you gave up on dreams
and lost your confidence
broken down, slouching seems
like defiled innocence

would I recognize you today?
and if I didn’t, what would you say?
would you just walk on by
as if we never were in love yesterday?
and would you recognize me?
if you saw me today?

crappy songs and questions left over from another time
no one here to answer so what if the words do not rhyme
is this all a waste of time to reach out to you
if you never know what I do then what is true?
what is true what is true?

would I know you if I saw you today
my heart will not forget how much I loved you
my mind will not stop dreaming of you
but would my eyes
recognize
your face
if I saw you today

I love you more

2009-10-08T00:09:00.002-05:00

I could love you more
if you would let me
like never before
could you forget me?
even far away
still more every day
and you know
I love you
for love lasts
no matter how much time passes
love lasts
forever
and beyond
I love you
even if you never respond

and I love you more
deep inside you know
it’s you I adore
wherever you go
even far away
you hear this song play
and you know
I love you
for love lasts
no matter what else happens
love lasts
forever
and beyond
I love you
for love goes on and on

and as sure as the stars shine at night
even if we do not see their light
and as sure as the waves ride the tide
even if we never see the other side
and as sure as the flowers bloom in spring
even if the birds and bees don’t know a thing
nature has a way we all must go
even if we pretend we don’t know
we can be sure
with every pore
I love you more
like never before
I love you more

disappear

2009-09-18T00:32:00.002-05:00

is it madness to be true
to the promise i gave you
is it sickness to be sad
over what we might have had
is there something not quite right
with not wanting someone new
am i doing something wrong
to still feel in love with you

how many days must go by
before it becomes an obsession
how many nights must one cry
before it becomes a life lesson
how many weeks, many months, many years
how many wishes on first stars, how many midnight tears
how many prayers must go unanswered, pleas falling on deaf ears
before it's too long to be wanting you - what is the greater fear
being called a fool or madman -
or believing that love can just/simply disappear

is it fantasy to be
this true to this dream in me
is it harmful to be missing
the feel of your lips kissing
is there something not quite good
or am i just misunderstood
tell me what makes true love true
once i thought we knew...
once we swore we knew...

how many times must a heart beat
before it can let go
how many times must a heart break
before the mind must know
how many weeks, many months, many years
how many wishes upon first stars, how many midnight tears
how many unanswered prayers, pleas falling on deaf ears
before it's too long to be wanting you - what is the greater fear
being called a fool or madman -
or believing that you want me to just/simply... disappear

i'd never want you to know this if it doesn't please you
or if my loving you is something you don't want me to do
this is as close as i'll come to your life unless you say
you want me to share more with you today
want me to be in your life today
right or wrong i dream
to be in your life today

i can stay away if you want me to
and i may be a fool or madman but one thing is clear
but i can't believe (i won't believe) that love can just/simply disappear
love cannot, love does not just/simply disappear

all the old songs

2009-05-13T23:31:00.000-05:00

i get sad sometimes
when i think about how much
i miss you
when i realize how long
you've been gone
and even though i carry on
i hang on
somehow
i still hang on

and i hear all the old songs
in the back of my mind
the ones that i called yours
the ones that you called mine

and i feel all the old dreams
the hopes wash out the fears
and i fall in love with you
as if you were here

and i get sad sometimes
i don't want to pretend
wishing for a memory
to become real again

i get sad sometimes
when i am too alone
hanging on to dreams
as if they're all i own

i get sad sometimes
when i think how much
i want you
when i realize how long
you've been gone
and even though i carry on
i hang on
somehow
i still hang on

and i hear all the old songs...

all for you

2008-12-16T01:55:00.000-05:00

once it was all for you
and you knew
oh you knew
how could you not be sure
everything i did
lead me to your door
every chance i’d get
i would run to you
and in your arms
my love was true
in your arms
my dreams came true
everything i did
the life i lived
it was all for you

now i smile when i heard your name
and though i’ve loved others in this life
nothing since has been the same
you should have been my wife

does that mean i am destined to
fail at love? that can’t be true
i live to love, am i destined to
fail at love when i’m not with you?

once it was all for you…

do i have to face a cold hard truth
have i sabotaged love in my youth
am i too much a perfectionist
that i won’t let go of what i missed

once it was all for you
and you knew
oh you knew
how could you not be sure
everything i did
lead me to your door
every chance i’d get
i would run to you
and in your arms
my love was true
in your arms
my dreams came true
everything i did
the life i lived
it was all for you

does that mean i am destined to
fail at love? that can’t be true
i live to love, it is what i do
my dream is to share love this true
in everything i do,
so it can’t be true
am i destined to
fail at love when i’m not with you?

no no no no, say that’s not so
i want to love again
i need to love again
i want to feel
this love so real
this everything
i want to sing
to someone
you or someone new

it is all for you
and you know
oh you know
how could you not be sure
everything i do
leads me to your door
every chance i get
i run to you
to be in your arms
where my love is true
in your arms
my dreams come true
everything i do
my whole life through
it is all for you
all for you

it is all for you
and you know
oh you know
how could you not be sure
everything i do
leads me to your door
every chance i get
i run to you
to be in your arms
where my love is true
in your arms
my dreams come true
everything i do
my whole life through
it is all for you
all for you

today

2008-12-04T04:50:00.000-05:00

it is today
and yesterday
is a million miles away
ten billion years
a moment in our love

it is today
what can i say
i still feel the same way
a trillion tears
cannot wash away love

it is today
and i can still feel the cold rain stinging my face
right here and now
memory is something that nothing can replace
lost in your eyes
as if we can pretend there is a shadow of doubt
i am still there
lost in your eyes and i will never get out

lost in your eyes
the moment i saw you i knew it was the end
lost in your eyes
i'd do anything for you to be anything for you
if we could always be friends

lost in your eyes
i found the secret that everyone else calls divine
lost in your eyes
is where i find myself every time i close mine

and it is today
the music plays
for true love that always stays
infinite fears
cannot deter this love

it is today
beyond the fray
for what all the people pray
we have right here
a moment in our love

it is today
and i can see see the glow of my eyes in yours
right here and now
memory cannot be contained by walls or doors
lost in your eyes
i found every secret answer to my fantasy
and there i am
lost in your eyes for all eternity

lost in your eyes
the moment i saw you i knew it was the end
lost in your eyes
i'd do anything for you to be anything for you
if we could always be friends

lost in your eyes
i found the secret that everyone else calls divine
lost in your eyes
is where i find myself every time i close mine

lost in your eyes
the only place i know i am free
lost in your eyes
the only place i ever found me

the first of december (has another song)

2008-12-01T04:42:00.002-05:00

the first of december
comes blowing 'round again
the winter chill and freezing rain
this night may never end

what can i say, there's nothing to do
some things we can not control
the memory of your eyes
is still the door to my soul

the first of december
takes me back to a time
when love was all around me
and everything could rhyme

and time moves along, and everything changes
but some thing always feel the same
like the memory that warms my heart
every time i hear your name

it's not that i wish you were here
if that would mean leaving your life
i hope you know comfort with your family
and if you are somebody's wife
my wishes remain for your happiness
let there be that glow still in your eyes
for all the world lit up every time you smiled
like an expected unexpected surprise

the first of december
is your day my friend
the song plays and memory
brings me back again

what can i say, what can we do
some thing we don't want to control
the memory of your smile
is still the door to my soul

and while i loved others, for my love is strong
it still fills my heart with joy to know
the strings of my heart can still play the same song
love is forever, it will always blow
like a thread woven through time, through everything
through all of us and all good we can do
the first of december reminds me of this
and how it all started with you

the first of december
is for memories
for all that has ever been
makes today all it can be

and my soul rests easy
for here it can belong
in love that lasts forever
in love that makes us strong

and together we make the world a better place
reminding everyone love never ends
our families can embrace the truth we know
that love is true and we can all be friends

and those who are afraid to dream
and those who are afraid to love
and those who are afraid to believe
love cannot be wrong
may they find their first of december
may they find where they belong
in love that lasts forever
in love that makes us strong

the first of december
has another song

lost in the game

2008-10-08T01:18:00.000-05:00

i may never have been as happy
as when i was lost in the game
working extra hours and going to school
there was no time for any pain
there was no time for the sorrow
that comes from thinking of what's wrong
that comes from thinking of what's missing
that comes from wondering where you belong
but that takes time to think about life
maybe it's better to be so busy living
that you don't have time to think about life
that is when memory is most forgiving

was i influenced by the spector
of the goal everyone calls success
was i overwhelmed by the pressure
of not making life a big mess
was i taken in by responsibility
is that what growing up is about
under the influence of the influenced
the ones who seem to be without a doubt

I may never have been as happy
as when i was so ignorant
that i forgot what i was doing
and just did it, emanuel kant
when i came to believe in can't
can't rock the boat
can't be free
can't follow dreams
can't be me
can't stop running
can't leave the race
can't waste time on
dreams
i must have replaced
dreams
with a smiley face

was i influenced by the spector
of the goal everyone calls success
was i overwhelmed by the pressure
of not making life a big mess
was i taken in by responsibility
is that what growing up is about
under the influence of the influenced
the ones who seem to be without a doubt

and even if it's just a mask
the pretense is success
and maybe that's the true secret
to peace and happiness

I may never have been so happy
as when i was lost in the game
(fade out)

when i love you

2008-09-06T04:13:00.000-05:00

oh how i loved when i loved you
there was nothing else anywhere
every dream of love anyone ever knew
came true the moment you appeared
with you i knew love everywhere

oh how i trusted when i trusted you
there was nothing i would not do
every decision was easy and true
all i had to ask was what i had to do
to be with you - to be with you

life was every moment i was with you
and when i was away from you i only had one goal
to return to be by your side
i lived in a world without ego or pride
i loved a loved that could not be denied
i oved a love so true
and if i ever could touch my soul
i touched it when i was with you

the words always fit the music
the music flowed so naturally
we found the magic of love
everything became you and me

oh how i loved when i loved you
there was no mountain too high
every dream of love anyone ever knew
came true the moment you caught my eye
with you heaven fell from the sky

some people dream of perfection
perfect love trust and embrace
some people live a whole lifetime
with only this dream to chase
some people accept a compromise
it's better than being alone
but for just a moment in each others eyes
we lived the dream of perfection
perfect love trust and embrace
a moment that spans every lifetime
a dream we no longer chase
for just a moment in each others eyes
we share love nothing can replace
a simple dream of perfection
perfect love trust and embrace
a simple dream of perfection
the heaven that others chase
for just a moment in each others eyes
we knew that perfection's grace

that's how i loved when i loved you
and that's how i love you still
for nothing else compares
to how i loved when i loved you
how i love when i love you
how i love when i love you
and i always will

amy's song

2007-12-16T03:03:00.000-05:00

when i think of how much i loved you
how i let go of the controls
how my heart stopped beating every time
you walked through the door
i remember just what love means
and what i am living for
when i think of how i loved you
i just want to… love you more

we met at a time when everything was new
we knew what we wanted but we were not sure what to do
in our innocence we did not hold back a thing
in one magic moment we learn how our hearts could sing

and that moment is the eternal feeling
every heart dreams of
it's the rise, it's the fall
it's the wonder of love

when i think of how much i loved you
how i felt so out of control
how my whole body trembled every time
you brought your body close to me
i remember just what love means
and what living is all about
when i think of how i loved you
i just want to let… more love out

and those innocent days may seem left behind
but it's as real as ever when you come to my mind
it's a blessing to know how to not hold back a thing
to know one magic moment when we let our hearts sing

that moment of eternal feeling
every heart dreams of
it's the rise, it's the fall
it's the wonder of love

and when i am alone longing for love
you come to me to remind me of what my heart dreams of
so i never give up hope that it'll come again
and for this gift you will always be my friend

when i think of how much i loved you
i believe i can love that much again
when i think how much i loved you
i am sure
i can love and i want to love you once more
when i think of how i loved you
i just want to love… more and more

that moment of eternal feeling
every heart dreams of
it's the rise, it's the fall
it's the wonder of love

all for you

2007-12-16T02:47:00.000-05:00

all for you
i wait for someone who can understand
all for you
for no one else can share the love we knew
all for you
the wonder of love is at the heart's command
all for you
i gave it all and made the dream come true
and i want to do it again, but it takes two
so i wait for someone who can share the love i made all for you

there may be those who have never loved before
they may be afraid or only dream of fairy tales
maybe there is still a purity in the first time
but love can come again just as a wind can fill sales
and once you know love then you understand
the unconditional fall
of giving it all
the heart knows the call
of giving it all

and the best i can do
is give it all again
to someone who
can understand
the love we knew
when i lived all for you
the best i can do
is find someone who inspires a love so true
that i can sing
everything i do
i do for you
the best i can do
is find someone who inspires a love so true
so i can sing
all i do i do
all for you

could it be you?
could it be you?
could it be you?
could it be you?
could it be you?
could it be you?
could it be you?
could it be you?
could it be you?
could it be you?
could it be you?

what if I loved you

2007-04-03T23:49:00.000-05:00

what if I loved you
how would it be?
would you reciprocate
or would you laugh at me?
would you feel threatened
or flattered or sexy?
would you even
take me seriously?

what if I told you
I could lose myself in you?
would you believe me
would you want me to?
is the attraction
at all mutual?
for me you define
what is beautiful

and if I never come to know your love
you will still be all I'm dreaming of
for whatever chemicals you inspire
nothing else could ever get me higher

what if I reached out
would you take my hand?
would you feel something
would you understand?
this is not an idle
wish or anything I planned
the nearer to you
it feels like wonderland

where everything is perfect as if you
were made to make all my dreams come true
beyond any explanations
there are euphoric sensations
I could watch you do every little thing you do
forever would not be long enough to
express the wonder of you
I wish you knew

what if I gave you
all I can be
control and power
to create me
what if I trust you
this unconditionally
believing that you are
everything to me

what if I loved you
how would it be?

when I was physical

2007-04-03T22:53:00.000-05:00

there was a time when I was so inspired
to feel I could not live without
the vision of the one I loved
if I could not touch her every day
I ached all over
it's been so long since I felt that way

I don't know when or how my brain was rewired
to to deal with unfulfilled desire
and accept the isolation
of not knowing a lover's touch
and resting easy
as if I never wanted anything that much

somewhere in my memory is a passion
an uncompromised motivation
the pinnical of sensation
the ultimate inspiration

somewhere along the way
I lost the power to give that power
to someone else
so content with myself
what was once the point of this life
is now something else

is there no need in me anymore
and how can I love as I once knew
the passion that I once knew before
I don't know what's left for me to do

if no one can stimulate me now
to make me want to lose control
and give everything I am
I don't know my life's role

the hopefully hopeful romantic
perfect love
that was my highest goal
now I watch and wonder why
did the losing take it's toll
or is it maturity
feels like insanity

somewhere deep inside is a memory
that inspires me
to still want to find someone
who makes me lose control

I recall when I was physical
how it felt to want someone so much
that being with her was my only goal

4am again

2006-12-15T03:59:00.000-05:00

it's 4am again
and I wonder where you are
and I imagine myself with you
that's a trip never too far
for you're always on my mind
as you're always in my heart
that's the way my love is made
and you knew it from the start

so don't act surprised
as if you've forgotten who I am
the promises made were meant
whatever we have planned
there's only one truth so deep
that nothing can get in it's way
and that is that love is true
forever and a day

it's 4am again
and not a soul in sight
alone in my empty bed
but still I feel alright
for you're always next to me
as you're always in my heart
that's the way my love is made
and you knew it from the start

so don't act surprised
as if you don't understand
the promises made were meant
never to be a demand
there's only one truth in me
that nothing can change it at all
and that is that love is free
and nothing stops the fall

so when I make love
part of me stays with you
and everyone I've ever loved
remains part of me too
for love's always part of me
it's always in my heart
that's the way my love is made
and you knew it from the start

so don't act surprised
as if you don't understand
the promises made were meant
this is the way I am
there's only one truth in me
that nothing can ever replace
and that is that love is free
this is my state of grace

it's 4am again

and when I think of love
I can still see your face

what happens to dreams?

2006-12-10T22:17:00.000-05:00

what if we met again today
would we know each other and might
we feel as we felt yesterday
would it be love at first sight?

what if I looked into your eyes
would the same love shine again
remember when we could not look away
when we swore we'd always be best friends

I know time passes
and feelings may change
we all do our growing
and life can be strange
as challenges push us
and memories fade
do we lose hope and faith
in the plans we made
and what happens to dreams
what happens to dreams?

is your life so full today
that there's no room for an old friend
I once lived for your happiness
and that wish did not end

if you are loved and loving and satisfied
may I cheer your blessings with you?
and if you are alone in your life today
may I be there for you?

I know time passes
and feelings may change
we all do our growing
and life can be strange
as challenges push us
and memories fade
what happens to hope?
what happens to faith?
and what happens to dreams
what happens to dreams?

I will always love you
wherever you are
whatever you're doing
I am here for you

I will always love you
even if you never know
what happens to dreams?
dreams will always grow

and if we met again today
you'd see me smile again
whatever happens from there
I'll always be your friend
and dreams never end
dreams never end

stronger

2006-12-06T23:07:00.000-05:00

life is a journey from womb to grave
moments are passing by constantly
every moment you spend trying to save
a moment that passed
is wasting what that moment can be
at least this is how life appears to me

so I live for today
and I give it all away
all my love all my trust all I am
and don't think that I don't understand

that I can be hurt
and ground into dirt
but if I must die I will die alive
not waiting for some future life to arrive

I learned that from you
it is what you used to do
I don't know where you are not or why
you made the choice to give up and die

maybe peer pressure got to you
or maybe your love was not true
but I choose to believe that it was fear
and you caved in and disappeared

and I take this moment to bring you into today
so I can remember the most important words I can say
I love you even though you went away
for the world can leave me, but my love will stay

this is what I learned
and as the world turned
I realize each moment is something new
and I choose what I want to do

I don't have to feel hurt or sad
because I know the love we had
is still the love I share right now
I am blessed because I remember how

so in this moment as if out of the blue
I show you what it means when love is true
weakness is running away, giving into fear
strength is loving everyone everywhere
and that's what I do
I carry it through
and I am stronger because I once loved you
I am stronger because... I still love you
every moment is new and in everything I do
I am stronger because... I still love you

divine

2006-12-02T06:36:00.000-05:00

hey look at me
even after all this time
I am still dreaming
and still coming to rhyme
believing in the love
I felt when you were mine
and that keeps love alive
and keeps me in touch with the divine

I've watched many others giving up
crumbling under years of loneliness
forgetting how good it felt to love
focused on how bad it feels to be so lonely
why choose that way
when you can choose to remember love?

I've watched many others giving in
to escapes to the surface emptiness
forgetting the hunger they bury deep inside
as if it goes away just because we hide
it so well, hey
what do you think happens to the love?

love is energy that matters
and matter can not be destroy
just open any science textbook
or the holy book of your choice

you'll find they both have the same answers
it is elementary school knowledge
and it's ironic how we learn to forget
the basics by the time we get through college

is it so painful to keep a heart open
what's the worst that can happen
the trust does not work out?

well for me it's worse to lose the ability
to love and trust – I won't let that happen
cuz that is what this life is all about

so look at me
even after all this time
I am still dreaming
and still coming to rhyme
believing in the love
I felt when you were mine
and that keeps love alive
and keeps me in touch with the divine

and I can still fall in love at first sight
and I can still feel...
oh I can still feel...
and love can still be as real
as it was the very first time

love is energy eternal
the touch of the cosmic wind
the holiest of the holies
where every god story begins

and no matter how well you deny it
it is all around us now
and you can still be part of it
if you just let yourself feel...
you'll remember how

hey look at you
even after all this time
you are still dreaming
and still coming to rhyme
believing in the love
you felt when you were mine
and that keeps love alive
and keeps you in touch with the divine
keep love alive
and life will always be divine

blessed

2006-12-02T06:24:00.000-05:00

this is how it used to be every year
as I would remember you
and pay respect to the feeling
of a love so true
that it felt more alive
than anything else I would do
and what kept me going was believing
you knew it too

this is how it was every year
as I would open the feelings again
and reach past the emptiness
to believe we were still friends
and while it may be all
no more than a fantasy
it is what keeps me believing in love
and believing that love
can still happen for me

so who am I to go against tradition
and who am I to stop a bleeding heart
and who am I to resist the submission
that makes love real enough to tear reality apart
this is how I knew right from the start
I am blessed with endless love inside my heart

so as long as I am alone
instead of lamenting
instead of forgetting
how it feels to be in love
I take a few moments each day
and devote them to remembering
how precious it can feel
when everything a heart dreams of
comes true
this is how I still remember you
this is why I still remember you

and in a world where so many turn off their hearts
as if dreams can not come true
I feel blessed
that this is still something I can do

just a dream

2006-12-02T06:17:00.000-05:00

I know it's just a dream
but what else do I have
to hold on to each night
the empty space beside me

so why shouldn't I dream
of the best time I had
when everything felt right
and nothing was denied me

there's no one who looks at me now
with your love in their eyes
so I remember how it felt
before love became lies

a simpler time of innocence
when dreams could still come true
and every waking moment was
about me and you

no one holds my hand the way you used to hold my hand
no one looks at me as their whole world and
no one shares the sweet emotion
of passion and devotion
that came natural to us
unconditional trust

and I know it's just a dream
but it's better than holding
on to nothing every night
I let our love guide me

through the lands of loneliness
and the valleys of despair
it's my way around depression
remembering how it felt to care
as much as we cared
and remembering how it felt to share
as much as we shared

it keeps love real
at least in my mind
until someone comes along
who makes it real
so I can make love real again
and then
that will be the time
to leave our dream behind

I know it's just a dream
but what else do I have
to hold on to each night
the empty space beside me

so why shouldn't I dream
of the best time I had
when everything felt right
. . .

I know it's just a dream
but it keeps love alive
so I can still feel
the passion inside me

so why shouldn't I dream
of the best time I had
when everything felt right
. . .

a new day

2006-12-02T00:27:00.000-05:00

it's a new day
and I'm still in love with you

you said let's take our time
and make sure it's real
you wanted it sublime
we'll that's how I feel

and if you're still there
right where we left off
then you know time proved
love's never really lost

true love is forever
and another day
beyond eternity
true love knows the way

true love is infinite
and then even more
beyond the rational
that's what love is for

and it's true
it is you
I adore

and no one
can offer
you more

it's a new day
and I still believe in you

you said let's not rush in
to make sure we're sure
it's never enough
we always want more

and that is true love
the endless fountain
of hope's energy
let's do it again

true love is forever
and another day
beyond eternity
true love knows the way

true love is infinite
and then even more
beyond the rational
that's what love is for

and it's true
it is you
I adore

and no one
can offer
you more

ions are inundated with fears
wisdoms passed down through countless years
but every other way misses what we don't miss
the passion, the peace, security, the bliss

it's a new day
and there is still no time or space when we kiss

confessed

2006-12-02T00:23:00.000-05:00

I never felt as good as I did
when I was in your arms
you might say I was just a kid
and don't really know

but I've lived a life full of love
I cared, much was shared
and experience speaks for me now
for all the wondrous love I made
still nothing compared

with your kiss
with the bliss
that I knew
with you

I never felt as true as I did
when you believed in me
you might say I flipped my lid
but I'm not crazy

for I've taken my time
and nothing has changed
I've evaluated a wonderful life
and I would only change one thing
it might sound strange

but your kiss
is the bliss
still the best
confessed

nothing has ever felt as true
nothing has ever felt as real
nothing has ever gotten so through
to the core of my soul
nothing has made me feel
as good as you did
when you shared ecstasy
the best life I lived
was when you were with me

the wonder of love

2006-12-01T23:55:00.000-05:00

the wonder of love
the most passionate, the most pure
we call it true love
it's when we want for no more
than just another moment
in each others arms
as you wish, as we wish
and we call it charms

and we always are amazed
as if we thought it impossible
and yet it fills our stories
and deepest of dreams

and we always are surprised
as if we never expected it
and yet it is our greatest hope
and what life means

the answer to the question
of what life is about
is found inside in your love
and letting it out
the answer is loving
and being loved
there's nothing more holy
there's nothing above

and we always are enthralled
as if time can stand still
but there is no time
when it comes to love

and we always are enchanted
as if out of control
to give unconditional trust
that's what we dream of

if we are honest when we look inside
if we listen to the songs in our heart
if the truth we feel as truth is not denied
then we know exactly where to start

the wonder of love
whatever we do
that's always the very best part

the wonder of love
for me and you
obvious right from the start

the answer to the question
of what life is about
is found inside in your love
and letting it out
the answer is loving
and being loved
there's nothing more holy
there's nothing above

the wonder of love
the most passionate, the most pure
we call it true love
it's when we want for no more
than just another moment
together forever anew
as you wish, as we wish
as all of our dreams come true

once in love...

2006-12-01T04:43:00.000-05:00

once in love, there is no going back
there's no return to blissful ignorance
once in love, the cat has left the sack
the mind can not ignore experience

and some will drink, and some will smoke
and some will do anything, it is no joke
to kill brain cells, to drown regret
but love is something no heart can forget

it can turn cold, as hard as stone
it can be mean and live a life alone
but deep within, the heart still knows
and in dreams, or nightmares, it shows

even if we believe no one knows

once in love, you understand the smile
there is once with that much suspense
and you can live a life in denial
but the mind can not regain the innocence

and some will rage, and some will cage
emotions in silence or in words on a page
but few will try to fall in love again
and that is why I sit here with paper and pen

the passion's deep, the passion's fire
and I may scare you with the heat of my desire
so I just wait for you to come
and watch the people passing by so cool they're numb

trading love for life blind deaf and dumb

still I will not give up hoping you understand
someone, somewhere, out there with an open hand
rising above all the pain, rage, and fears
to see the rainbows through their love's tears

and once in love, we can not lose unless
we give up on the magic love can be
for once in love, the greatest happiness
is falling in love again endlessly
for once in love lasts all eternity

if you were here today

2006-12-01T04:20:00.001-05:00

if you were here today
I'd want to hold you
just to see if I would shiver
at your touch

if you were here today
I would not scold you
for after all this time
I want so much

to look into your eyes
and see you are still there
the one I fell in love with
before we knew despair

the one I lived and died for
and pay hommage to each year
you know what day it is
you know the way it is
and you can't say it is
a suprise to hear

I love you madly
I leave you badly
I will never get the good bye part right

I love you gladly
I leave you sadly
and in dreams I am still with you every night

the magic moment lingers
even after all this time
you're the reason that my fingers
pick up a pen to rhyme

you're the rhythm of my heartbeats
and the passion in my soul
of all I've done with this life
you remain my only goal

for I love you madly
and I leave you badly
I will never get the good bye part right

I love you gladly
I leave you sadly
and in dreams I am still with you every night

you know exactly what I'm gonna say
and what I would do
with you
if you were here today

for you

2006-12-01T04:05:00.000-05:00

I dedicate this song to you
please make the music more beautiful
than any sound you ever heard

I dedicate this life to you
my one hope is you are believing
how much I mean every word

for you are everything my heart has ever dreamed of
in my fairy tales and fantasies you are how I see love
and there is nothing I would not do at your beckoned call
for you I live and breathe and I dedicate this fall

into love
wonderful love
magical love
like no love ever known before

this is love
beautiful love
passionate love
that drives us to always want more

and as long as you are near me I feel good inside
and as long as I am near you I am satisfied
in the moments we're together everything aligns
and it all makes sense as only love divines

the words can not begin to explain
what you do in my heart and soul and brain
what men find in god I find in you
it's all true
the ultimate ecstasy
is growing in you and me
we have found the secret key
to unlock eternity
and merge with infinity
trusting unconditionally
as we fall endlessly

into love
wonderful love
magical love
like no love ever known before

this is love
beautiful love
passionate love
that drives us to always give more

I dedicate this song to you
please make the music more beautiful
than any sound you ever heard

I dedicate this life to you
my one hope is you are believing
how much I mean every word

for you are everything my heart has ever dreamed of
in my fairy tales and fantasies you are how I see love
and there is nothing I would not do at your beckoned call
for you I live and breathe and I dedicate this fall

into love
wonderful love
magical love
like no love ever known before

this is love
beautiful love
passionate love
that drives us to always love more

yours

2006-12-01T04:00:00.000-05:00

I am yours
anything you want
any way you want
I will open any doors
sail to any shores
settle any scores
out-roar any roars
you can be sure
I am here for
you and no other
you are all I adore
I am yours
endlessly
infinitely
yours

totally
unconditionally
yours

completely
redundantly
yours

and I will not sleep

2006-12-01T03:45:00.000-05:00

and I will not sleep again without you
I may close my eyes and even reach
an unconscious stupor
but I'll never find my dreams
for my dreams are all in you
and I don't know how more clearly I can say
that I have not had one moment's rest
since you went away

and I will not sleep as I did with you
gave myself to dreams and even more
I was ready to die
satisfied I I found my dreams
and my dreams came true in you
but I have not heard a single song play
I have not come anywhere near my best
since you went away

you touched me in places so deep
I can never find myself again without you
you found secrets in me I had never known
and I never felt alone
when you were part of my life

you gave me reasons to live
I could never imagined feeling wihout you
all that is good came to bless us
all that is holy and precious
made us man and wife

and I will not sleep
this passion runs so deep
I have promises to keep
and rewards to reap
as I remain true to the love
others can only dream of
what was real for you and me
what is true for all to see
is the greatest fantasy
turned into reality
in the moments I shared with you
most have no clue
how perfectly beautiful
wonderfully magical
completely spectacular
there is no venacular
to express the feeling we knew
a love pure and true
and it is still here waiting for you
as powerful today
what else can I say?
I love you more each day
just the same
since you went away

and I will not sleep
though I might pray
you'll come back to me
and I start every day
with the hope and the faith
in the love we shared
for our hearts were true
there is mo measure
for how much we cared
we shared infinite pleasure
until you disappeared

now there always seems to be lines missing
for every song I play
what is wrong, they all say
but how can I tell them that I have not slept
since you went away
and I will not sleep again
until you're back to stay
please come home today

thirty nine lashes

2006-12-01T03:33:00.000-05:00

thirty nine lashes
one for each year
since I last saw you
since my last tear
though I have been crying
the whole time inside
a lifetime without you
I lived, but I died

it was magical moments of love at first sight
as we fell into each others arms
as if I lived in darkness you were the light
I was helpless to your charms

my body, my soul, my reason was yours
there was nothing I would not do
with you I could open any doors
I was so much better with you

and time can not change the emotion
absence does not diminish devotion
when love is as pure and true as ours was
time and space and everything else was devoured

and all that was left in my mind
as this beacon of love for you to find
I've been loving you all the time
I lived it in rhyme

thirty nine lashes
one for each year
since I last saw you
since my last tear
though I have been crying
the whole time inside
a lifetime without you
I lived, but denied

and wiping my eyes I find
thirty nine lashes
one for each year I resigned
to live in love with you
the highest love we can find
it is not all in my mind
I've been loving you all the time
I loved it in rhyme

thirty nine lashes are mine
proving love is divine
thirty nine lashes mark time
living in rhyme